Weight Loss Journal

The last time I weighted myself was on July 7th. My weight was 190.6 lbs.

Honestly I do not believe I lost any weight since then. I probably put some on, which is unacceptable. The problem (there is always an explanation, right?!) is that I’ve spent this week by myself and did not have my partner behind my back telling me to be careful with the amount of food I ate. And he will be gone for another week, which scares me.

But hopefully I will put my plan in motion effective tomorrow. This includes sticking to the points assigned to my by Weight Watchers (29 daily points) plus exercise.

Initial weight on July 7th 2008 – 190.6 lbs


Fitness: Getting Into Shape

Losing weight and becoming physically more fit should be one of my major short-term goals. I am overweight and absolutely out of shape – I can’t even bend! Pretty pathetic.

The only action I’ve taken so far was to join Weight Watchers, which has been very helpful. I see Weight Watchers as a lifestyle change, not a diet. It would work much better had I a better resolve in sticking to the plan.

But that’s going to change. Effective July 14th 2008 I will maintain my daily food ingestion within the points given to me by the Weight Watchers program. I know I will lose weight, as I’ve had already in the beginning.

The second step is to create a schedule to go to the gym. I need to keep a schedule and journal, so I can keep track of my progress.

I will keep both items on separate entries, so it is going to be easier to track each one separately.

Wish me luck! I just need to eat the two pints of ice cream and finish the pizza I have in the fridge!

Financials: Where Am I?

Considering you don’t know me, I believe I can list part of my financials here without fear of being kidnapped – that’s a (big) joke and you will understand it once you see my numbers.

The idea of this exercise is to keep track of my progress in many areas, including savings and credit card debt payment. Hopefully I will see the first one increasing and the latter decreasing in time.


  1. Nickname: Down Payment – this is my savings account for a down payment on a home. This account has a $50.00 automatic transfer set up (from my checking to my savings every 14 days)
    Balance on July 13th 2008 – $59.44
  2. Nickname: Travels & Indulgences – self-explanatory title. This account has a $50.00 automatic transfer set up (from my checking to my savings every 14 days)
    Balance on July 13th 2008 – $55.17
  3. Nickname: Unemployment Fund – also self-explanatory. This account has a $50.00 automatic transfer set up (from my checking to my savings every 14 days)
    Balance on July 13th 2008 – $52.29
  4. Nickname: Business – this is the savings I will use to fund my business ventures. This account has a $25.00 automatic transfer set up (from my checking to my savings every 14 days)
    Balance on July 13th 2008 – $173.15


  1. Chase #1 (APR 2.99% for life)
    Payment plan: $150.00/month – 21 months to pay it off – $79.09 paid in interest
    Balance on July 13th 2008 – $2,965.89
  2. Citi #1 (APR 0.00% until April 2009; 9.99% for life after April 2009)
    Payment plan: $200.00/month – 26 months to pay it off – $207.70 paid in interest (includes 10 months of 0.00% APR)
    Balance on July 13th 2008 – $4,729.07

So, this is it! I have a lot of work to do to increase my savings and reduce my credit card debt. I will keep you posted.

Goals: A List

Most articles I read on the Internet say we all should have a list of goals (short-term, medium-term and long-term), break down the steps to accomplish each goal (the steps should be simple, so one will actually be able to complete it and not feel overwhelmed by it) and set a deadline for each one. This will allow you to keep track of your progress. Your goals should also be believable and measurable! The only problem I see with this approach (mainly the measurability of it) is when you have something you cannot measure, for instance the goal to accomplish a more spiritual life. In this case, I would include it as a “Life Style Change” kinda goal.

You should also reward yourself anytime a major goal is accomplished – this will keep you on track! Small rewards will do it, no matter what, but try to keep them proportional to your accomplishments!

So, here are some of my goals (I will come back to this list as I think of more goals). I will also try to break them down in small steps and add deadlines to each one of them. And, whenever I accomplish something, I will let you know how I rewarded myself!

Hopefully this list may be the jumping point for something much, much bigger – a more accomplished, fulfilled life!

( for this exercise to make sense, I will set its starting date as of today, July 13th 2008 )

Short-Term Goals – to happen within one year

  1. Find a better paying job
  2. Obtain more education
  3. Exercise more regularly
    • Create a weekly gym schedule
  4. Save money more consistently
    • Set up automatic transfers from my checking to my savings accounts
  5. Eat more healthy meals
    • Cook at home more often
    • Purchase more vegetables and fish
  6. Talk to my friends more often
  7. Watch less television
  8. Have more fun
    • Hobbies (Photography, Cooking, Wine, Travel, Books)
  9. Network
    • MeetUp – this will allow me to interact with people that have things in common with me.

Medium-Term Goals – to happen between 1 and 5 years

  1. Pay all my credit card debt
  2. Fix my teeth
  3. Start my own business
    • Determine what it will be
    • Make sure I have enough money saved for the business

Long-Term Goals – to happen between 5 and 10 years

  1. Buy a home (house/condo/co-op)

Life-Style Change Goals – for life

  1. Be a more active person
  2. Become more confident

My Procrastination Is Over! Or Is It?

Do you want more proof of how much of a procrastinator I am? Just check out my two entries so far!

They were both written on the same day, March 12th 2008! It’s been almost 4 months since! 4 friggin’ months to write anything.

This needs to stop. I mean, the whole point of this exercise is to keep track of the things I want to accomplish in life – the name “Diary of a Procrastinator” was supposed to be an alert, a red flag, something that would make me reflect on my past actions and work on my present and future endeavors.

Now, in order for my procrastination to be done and over with, I believe I need to create some sort of journal or another way that will make myself commit to a schedule of some sort. I am still not very clear what I should do, but I will think of something, maybe list my goals, what is stopping me from accomplishing things, set dates, etc.

I will do my best to update this blog as often as possible. This may help me keep my promise to myself! And who knows? This may change my life!

I am not that bad, am I?


I had this really awful conversation with my mom the other day (over the phone, thank the gods!) and after we hung up I could not stop thinking about it. Basically the conversation was about where my parents are in their lives – they are fairly old, mom is around 73 and my dad is around 82.

Anyway, I told my mom that they should not count on anyone else but themselves to fix their problems. I live in another country (another continent, for that matter) and I am trying to fix my own life.

That got me thinking even more about my own future. Comparatively, at my age they were much better off than I am now…and look at them today? They are in such a bad shape! I am freaking scared for my own future.

Then I had a conversation with my partner, who is the best person I could have around any time of the day. He is a very intelligent guy, very funny and loves me a lot – yay! Jackpot, right?!

So, he was trying to figure out exactly what is going on on my mind, which I don’t really know. Anyway, I talked about my parents, especially my father who was never much of a role model to me, although I love him dearly. The whole Freud thing came up, with me blaming my mother for the problems I have now, yadda, yadda, yadda.

He told me that whatever happened, happened. It is past and I should move on. I am clear about the things that happened in my past, so let me work on these issues and move on. Good advice, huh? I think it is. But it is fucking difficult for me to change. It is physical! I get home and all I want to do is to watch tv and be a vegetable. It is soooo easy to be a vegetable. Even though I have thousands of plans and ideas and things I want to do when I get home…ha-ha! Just try to get me out of the couch? I will probably bite your ass!

But there is a light at the end of the tunnel – which I do hope is not an approaching train. We had a benefits fair this week at work. Basically there were a bunch of service providers whose main focus were to help us figure out what we need to do regarding dentistry, insurance, commuting to work, banking, etc.

I now have an appointment with a new dentist, with an eye doctor, with a nutritionist, and with a podiatrist! And I have my blood pressure checked – 126 by 86 (a little high, she told me. Probably because of the two cups of coffee I had before 10am). I am hoping the nutritionist will be the solution to all my problems – please tell me what to eat so I can have the necessary energy to complete all my tasks without groaning!! Please, please!

It took me over 3 years to start this blog!

…this delay is a perfect example why I called this blog “Diary of a Procrastinator.”

I am 40 years old. I live with my boyfriend (which I deeply love and appreciate). I don’t own a car. I still pay rent (for my credit, I live in New York City, which is probably one of the most expensive places on Earth). I have a 9 to 5 job I don’t much like – and my dream is to run my own business (at least I think this is my dream). I have no savings. I am never the first one to call my friends (they call me – thank the gods for friends!). I pay my monthly gym dues, but never go.

In short: I am a mess! Not a big one. But a mess nonetheless.

My goal here is to try to figure out why I am the way I am. To change the things I don’t like. To incorporate attitudes I like. To create a method to finish things I start. And to plainly just bitch whenever I want to. People may like what I write or not…although I do care what people think, this is not the place for me to be nice. I want to be able to say whatever comes to my mind without being judged by anyone. I hope you are kosher with that, because if you are not, too damn bad!

Hummm….this last couple of lines are a little off, don’t you think? I am not usually bitchy like this, but it is nice to have a place I can write anything I want.

So, forgive me for my short written Tourette attack. I am usually a nice person.